I am a wicked, wretched, deceitful sinner who has been saved by the grace, mercy and love of the Lord Jesus Christ. I was, like all men and women, an enemy of God. In 2 Corinthians 11:3, the Apostle Paul writes,
For we also once were foolish ourselves, disobedient, deceived, enslaved to various lusts and pleasures, spending our life in malice and envy, hateful, hating one anotherTitus 3:3
You adulteresses, do you not know that friendship with the world is hostility toward God? Therefore whoever wishes to be a friend of the world makes himself an enemy of God.Jas 4:4
And you were dead in your trespasses and sins, in which you formerly walked according to the course of this world, according to the prince of the power of the air, of the spirit that is now working in the sons of disobedience. Among them we too all formerly lived in the lusts of our flesh, indulging the desires of the flesh and of the mind, and were by nature children of wrath, even as the rest.Eph 2:1–3
But God, being rich in mercy, chose to redeem this sinner by no merit of my own, but solely for His own good will and good pleasure:
But when the kindness of God our Savior and His love for mankind appeared, He saved us, not on the basis of deeds which we have done in righteousness, but according to His mercy, by the washing of regeneration and renewing by the Holy Spirit, whom He poured out upon us richly through Jesus Christ our Savior, so that being justified by His grace we would be made heirs according to the hope of eternal life.Titus 3:4–7
But God, being rich in mercy, because of His great love with which He loved us, even when we were dead in our transgressions, made us alive together with Christ (by grace you have been saved), and raised us up with Him, and seated us with Him in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus, so that in the ages to come He might show the surpassing riches of His grace in kindness toward us in Christ Jesus. For by grace you have been saved through faith; and that not of yourselves, it is the gift of God; not as a result of works, so that no one may boast. For we are His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand so that we would walk in them.Eph 2:4–10
By the goodness of God, then, this wretched sinner has been cloaked in the righteousness of Christ:
For if while we were enemies we were reconciled to God through the death of His Son, much more, having been reconciled, we shall be saved by His life.Rom 5:10
So then as through one transgression there resulted condemnation to all men, even so through one act of righteousness there resulted justification of life to all men. For as through the one man’s disobedience the many were made sinners, even so through the obedience of the One the many will be made righteous.Rom 5:18–19
I was raised attending church every week, and shallowly believed from a young child on in the life, death, and resurrection of the Lord Jesus Christ. I never doubted God’s existence, or that Jesus died on the cross for the sins of men. But I was not saved. I could not be, because I was utterly ignorant of the depth and gravity of my own sin and my own dire need for a Savior.
As a teenager, I graduated from a Christian high school. As a college student, I received a Bachelor’s degree in Religious/Christian studies. As a young adult, I attended ‘church’ faithfully and even engaged in Bible studies.
But after years of living as a false convert, a fake Christian, and traveling through peaks and valleys with my false faith, God finally extended mercy to me. I began to realize that what I professed to believe with my lips—and the love I claimed to have for the Savior—did not match the life that I was living. One day, in His goodness and mercy, God threw me up against the brick wall of my own sin. He demolished my pride and granted me repentance and faith in Jesus Christ. I realized that my sin had been committed against a holy God. I finally understood the work of Jesus Christ, and that His life, atoning death, and resurrection were my only hope of salvation. God saved Erin Benziger.
Since my conversion, it is my desire to serve only Him. He has taken the knowledge I gleaned from years of studying the Word as an unregenerate young woman, and has graciously used it in my current ministry. Early on in my Christian life, I became aware of the gross apostasy and abominable false teachings that were running rampant in the visible church, and have since been determined to stand against them, firmly rooted in the Word of God. I have a desire to equip women with the same truth of this sure and trustworthy Word, and pray daily that God would use me however He wills to accomplish this task.